“Love In Quarantine”… Day Seven

Wake up very early, made a small case and went to train station going “home” for one day, see the family.

My two small nephews were waiting for me, full of energy and life. It’s impossible feel sad or have any kind of less happy thoughts being around with such amazing kids, always smiling and calling my name.

I feel bless in so many ways, for having me, my fantastic crazy family, great friends… but specially for all the choices I did on my life.

Today I’m ALL Them!

I can look back and clear see that I’m the sum of everything I lived, felt, achieve… I’m also all the tears I drop & share of happiness, fear, disappointment… and so on.

I choose to be the Smile and the Joy of a new Day, and with that the opportunity to fell more, know more, being one step closer to reach all my Dreams.

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Six

“Friends are the family we choose”… So, so True! I feel so bless, hard day, but in great company was always!

Start the day working on the company of a ” heart sister” that God or the Universe put in my life, is hard to complain when you look around and understand that “life” is so good to You!

Lisbon is “on fire” with our “Sainte António” celebrations, went with by “Tribe” for the city celebrations on “Graça”… Music, food, drinks… a lot of jokes, music, fun, and the best of all, fell that I’m at “Home” with the family I choose!

Very Happy… one more day fill of great experiences and big Smiles!!!

P.S. - I know the reason, but I must be honest... I miss Him every minutes of my day!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Five

It’s amazing the ability we have to adjust, adapt to almost everything, I’m not saying that is easy, is not, but step by step, day by day the ideas start to be more clear… the true is that on our daily basis we do not hear our thoughts, our deep feelings, the “noise” around us generate a “fog” in our mind that keep us “busy”.

Yesterday I went to an astrology consultation, totally forgot to mention it, my mind was still spinning with all the information.

It was different from the ones I went before, she is also psychologist, and her approach is not as spiritual as I was used to, was grounded, focused in action, positive thoughts, my goals.

Tired but happy… new project will launch in one week, I couldn’t believe if someone told me a year ago that I could be one entire year without working, a workaholic with no hope… it was a great year!

I look back and really seams it was in another life… I reborn!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Four

Great day… Work, the project is almost done, ready to start, I’m drill and very enthusiastic.

Did my first class of Pádel, the instructor is great, very professional, focused and strict, perfect for my needs.

In everything on my life, to keep me interested, to follow directives, I truly need to recognize talent, knowledge, method, that’s the only way it will drive me, make me stay focused and develop respect & admiration for someone.

Being very mental, I’m always thinking, questioning, comparing, so a Yes, because is Yes, do not convince me or impel me follow an idea, a project, a process, or someone… it must bring me content, challenges, make me believe!

Next step… organize priorities!!!

One more great day, that finished with a Big Smile!!! 

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Three

Long day, full of emotions, strange ones… some goods, other odd.

Wake up feeling like a “trunk” pass on me, maybe too much workout physical and mental.

All the processes are (feel) like a lopping… ups & downs, keeping my mind objective, looking for the balance between the rational and the emotional.

In the end of the day I can say it was a very positive one, face some “demons” but the glow from my angels (positive thoughts) took the best of my day.

Days like today that finished with a Big Smile are what I call a Good Day… “My Days”!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Two

The Me...

The main reason of this diary, is to be able to see in perspective this experience, deep understand my feelings, were and who I want to go and be, what are my dreams, aspirations and goals.

Live is “the” Pandora Box, is a choice to open the “box”, our simple keep quiet an see life pass by.

I’m the kind of person that open the box, want to see, feel, experience everything that “She” have to offer.

I do not fear live, but I do have my own rules to do it… On my own time, sometimes is Fast & Furious others is Sweet & Soft!!!

I want more, I wish everything… I feel deeply… I’m Intense, always looking to go further every day!

I’m thirst of life, of all the knowledge that can offer, so every day is a bless, a drop to fill this ocean on me… and that’s Me!

Addicted to adrenaline, smiles, real people… real experiences that push me challenge my own limits and attachments.

I accept as true the positive thoughts, the good energies, I do not believe in the impossible, taking also care to get to know very well my weaknesses, work with then, making them my biggest strengths.

My goals are simple… Smile, be (more) Happy, make Others Smile, Love & be Loved… all the rest will came with Time!!!

Diary of my "Love In Quarantine"... Day One

Once upon a day a Girl meet a Boy and…

Our History started in a glance, on that day I “Lost” our “Found” myself in his Sweet Lips and my Soul on his Intense Eyes.

It happened when I was (again) questioning my future, my career, where to go… and for a long time I had lost hope in Love, meet someone Special, Different and truly Authentic.

Even if my essence was craving for Passion and Love, I was not conscience of that.

I told myself over and over again that I wish to be by myself, on my one course.

He is kind, Soft, Intense, full of life… all that made me Dream & Smile!

Our paths cross when both were facing deep life changes… He was starting over, looking for himself, his identity, hunger for freedom... he still is!

We made a vow… Live our own “Carpe Diem”, no rules, no expectations, no titles, no charges… "Only be Us"!!!

The days, weeks, months pass by and the complicity, the respect, admiration, care, intimacy, passion grow… but we are also human, with a pass, histories, attachments and with all that came also the fear of drop ourselves in the "errors" of the common relationships, lose the magic that made what we live so Special and Unique, so when we notice, questions started to haunt our minds.

Learning that communication is essential in any kind of relationship, with some less positive chooses from the pass, making baby steps, putting away our filters, we try to understand our feelings, our own goals… what we really are, feel and want from life.

We realize to be truthful and completely honest with ourselves we needed go deep, walk away from our comfort zone, and think “out of the box”… it’s true if we really want different results, we need to act different.

Love In Quarantine

We talk about it, share intentions, fears, positive that will bring “light” to our days and thoughts.

Went to bed confidante that is the best for both, but just fall asleep when the day rise, knowing that every minute it will be difficult, that I will miss all about him, but especially what he makes me fell… the person I’m when I am by his side.

Day One…

Not feeling… robot mode, just fill my day with work, manage to be with good friends, went to the cinema… “Wonder Girl” great film, need to say, above my poor expectation.

We share all the friends I have here, share hobbies, interests, it will be quite a challenge.

Catch myself thinking: How he is? Does he think about me? Looking to the phone, knowing that it will not ring, and we just start the first 24 hours of a long journey.

Like to think that we are doing it side by side, perceptive that deep in my heart it will be ok, will make me stronger, smarter, but also bring to the light like a “Heads Up” that we don’t control anything, in particular our own feelings.

“Nothings Ends, everything Transforms”; If it meant to be, It will be”; If it don’t kill, it will make you Stronger”… and so one!!!