“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty

Half Way… what I fell at this point? 
In the middle of “Just missing 20 days” or Still missing 20 days??!

It feels like the “40 Shadows of the Quarantine”!!!

Some are pure light like a sunrise or a sunset, other are darker as a lonely night!

Whatever the next 20 days will bring, I do know that my feelings are more clear and real, having the opportunity to deeply dive on them, embracing all the sensations, emotions, attachments they can offer to this journey.

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Eighteen

“Unfilled”… feels like I have a big hole on my chest that sucked all my energy.

“Love Hangover”… the abstinence from the “Us”, all the efforts needed to deal with the emotions and my deep thoughts are making me feel like this… doing my best to understand the strange “humor flows” that I’m dealing with.  

Smile and them sad and lonely, positive and then stay emotional… feeling tired!!!

It hard, just wants to scream and run far away from me, my thoughts, from this “emotional mood” that toke over my “Sunshine”!

Want to call and say: Hey you there… I Love You, I care, I feel… I “need” Us!!!

Can’t do that, so I write, it’s the only way I found to speak to myself, to organize ideas and try to understand my feelings.

Not going anywhere, just a “moment feeling”, here is where I want to be, is the “home” I choose no matter what.

Please do not misunderstand me… I do not regret anything, truly happy for being able to feel and sharing my feelings and thoughts, myself… just learning about it.

My heart shot every time we cross, who said: “Away from the eyes, away from the heart”???

Lie, it’s a myth… I never had You so close, so present in Me!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Seven

Wake up very early, made a small case and went to train station going “home” for one day, see the family.

My two small nephews were waiting for me, full of energy and life. It’s impossible feel sad or have any kind of less happy thoughts being around with such amazing kids, always smiling and calling my name.

I feel bless in so many ways, for having me, my fantastic crazy family, great friends… but specially for all the choices I did on my life.

Today I’m ALL Them!

I can look back and clear see that I’m the sum of everything I lived, felt, achieve… I’m also all the tears I drop & share of happiness, fear, disappointment… and so on.

I choose to be the Smile and the Joy of a new Day, and with that the opportunity to fell more, know more, being one step closer to reach all my Dreams.