sexta-feira, 9 de junho de 2017

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Four



Great day… Work, the project is almost done, ready to start, I’m drill and very enthusiastic.

Did my first class of Pádel, the instructor is great, very professional, focused and strict, perfect for my needs.

In everything on my life, to keep me interested, to follow directives, I truly need to recognize talent, knowledge, method, that’s the only way it will drive me, make me stay focused and develop respect & admiration for someone.

Being very mental, I’m always thinking, questioning, comparing, so a Yes, because is Yes, do not convince me or impel me follow an idea, a project, a process, or someone… it must bring me content, challenges, make me believe!

Next step… organize priorities!!!


One more great day, that finished with a Big Smile!!! 

quinta-feira, 8 de junho de 2017

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Three



Long day, full of emotions, strange ones… some goods, other odd.

Wake up feeling like a “trunk” pass on me, maybe too much workout physical and mental.
All the processes are (feel) like a lopping… ups & downs, keeping my mind objective, looking for the balance between the rational and the emotional.

In the end of the day I can say it was a very positive one, face some “demons” but the glow from my angels (positive thoughts) took the best of my day.

Days like today that finished with a Big Smile are what I call a Good Day… “My Days”!!!

quarta-feira, 7 de junho de 2017

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Two


The Me...

The main reason of this diary, is to be able to see in perspective this experience, deep understand my feelings, were and who I want to go and be, what are my dreams, aspirations and goals.

Live is “the” Pandora Box, is a choice to open the “box”, our simple keep quiet an see life pass by.
I’m the kind of person that open the box, want to see, feel, experience everything that “She” have to offer.

I do not fear live, but I do have my own rules to do it… On my own time, sometimes is Fast & Furious others is Sweet & Soft!!!
I want more, I wish everything… I feel deeply… I’m Intense, always looking to go further every day!

I’m thirst of life, of all the knowledge that can offer, so every day is a bless, a drop to fill this ocean on me… and that’s Me!

Addicted to adrenaline, smiles, real people… real experiences that push me challenge my own limits and attachments.

I accept as true the positive thoughts, the good energies, I do not believe in the impossible, taking also care to get to know very well my weaknesses, work with then, making them my biggest strengths.

My goals are simple… Smile, be (more) Happy, make Others Smile, Love & be Loved… all the rest will came with Time!!!

terça-feira, 6 de junho de 2017

Diary of my "Love In Quarantine"... Day One



Once upon a day a Girl meet a Boy and…
Our History started in a glance, on that day I “Lost” our “Found” myself in his Sweet Lips and my Soul on his Intense Eyes.

It happened when I was (again) questioning my future, my career, where to go… and for a long time I had lost hope in Love, meet someone Special, Different and truly Authentic.

Even if my essence was craving for Passion and Love, I was not conscience of that.
I told myself over and over again that I wish to be by myself, on my one course.

He is kind, Soft, Intense, full of life… all that made me Dream & Smile!

Our paths cross when both were facing deep life changes… He was starting over, looking for himself, his identity, hunger for freedom... he still is!

We made a vow… Live our own “Carpe Diem”, no rules, no expectations, no titles, no charges… "Only be Us"!!!

The days, weeks, months pass by and the complicity, the respect, admiration, care, intimacy, passion grow… but we are also human, with a pass, histories, attachments and with all that came also the fear of drop ourselves in the "errors" of the common relationships, lose the magic that made what we live so Special and Unique, so when we notice, questions started to haunt our minds.

Learning that communication is essential in any kind of relationship, with some less positive chooses from the pass, making baby steps, putting away our filters, we try to understand our feelings, our own goals… what we really are, feel and want from life.

We realize to be truthful and completely honest with ourselves we needed go deep, walk away from our comfort zone, and think “out of the box”… it’s true if we really want different results, we need to act different.

Love In Quarantine

We talk about it, share intentions, fears, positive that will bring “light” to our days and thoughts.


Went to bed confidante that is the best for both, but just fall asleep when the day rise, knowing that every minute it will be difficult, that I will miss all about him, but especially what he makes me fell… the person I’m when I am by his side.

Day One…

Not feeling… robot mode, just fill my day with work, manage to be with good friends, went to the cinema… “Wonder Girl” great film, need to say, above my poor expectation.

We share all the friends I have here, share hobbies, interests, it will be quite a challenge.

Catch myself thinking: How he is? Does he think about me? Looking to the phone, knowing that it will not ring, and we just start the first 24 hours of a long journey.

Like to think that we are doing it side by side, perceptive that deep in my heart it will be ok, will make me stronger, smarter, but also bring to the light like a “Heads Up” that we don’t control anything, in particular our own feelings.

“Nothings Ends, everything Transforms”; If it meant to be, It will be”; If it don’t kill, it will make you Stronger”… and so one!!! 


quarta-feira, 8 de março de 2017

ILY...




8 Meses… 64 Semanas… 255 Dias… 6120 Horas… De descobertas, aprendizagem, sorrisos, desejo, imensas surpresas, partilha e dádivas. 
Poderia debitar aqui um milhão de palavras para descrever o que vivo e sinto, mas a verdade é que muitas vezes as palavras não descrevem com exatidão o queremos dizer… então limito-me dizer que estou grata, por Sentir e Viver os meus sonhos de menina/ mulher.
Agradecida a Ti por me receberes na tua vida, dizer-te que quando abres os braços para me abraçar, me fazes sentir segura, protegida, querida… por me aceitares tal como sou, sem filtros ou demandas quiméricas, por aturares as loucuras, os meus apegos e medos, gosto de ti assim… real, simples com tudo o que comportas, com o que desejas e és, no Teu tempo e espaço.
Não… Não estou a dizer que és perfeito, nós não somos perfeitos e eu, certamente estou longe de o ser.
Pelo caminho aprendi que podemos e devemos crescer com a diferênça, com o "novo", que a adversidade é uma oportunidade de crescer, aprender, de superar limites, de olhar a Vida de outras perspetivas e aos poucos, no Meu tempo estou mais recetiva a dar e a receber.


O meu maior desejo?!!... Ser ainda mais Feliz!!! 

segunda-feira, 18 de julho de 2016

... Feelings!!!



… As reticências marcam uma continuação,… de uma narrativa, uma história, ou simplesmente de uma vontade, um sonho… uma promessa velada que deixamos a pairar de um amanhã!!!

Quando escrevemos sobre o que sentimos, sobre as nossas aspirações, o que isso diz de nós?! Que somos sonhadores, somos lutadores, ou somos loucos crédulos que teimamos em desafiar o destino?!

Talvez um pouco de todas… Mas onde fica a “Serendipidade”, o “Destino”, o “Livre Arbítrio”… Como sabemos que fomos tocados?!!... o que fazer com a adrenalina, a ansiedade de dar e receber, de ouvir, de sentir mais e mais… A vontade de pegar no carro e percorrer a estrada que me levará ao teu abraço, aos teus olhos que anseio mais e mais a cada minuto que passa.

Respira… aceita, abraça e simplesmente sente!!!

Sem dúvida que os entendidos nas questões, a respeito dos enamorados da vida, têm razão quando dizem que o cérebro abranda e o coração acelera… E esses momentos são únicos e viciantes, tudo culpa das endorfinas, eu sou adicta de todas essas… tendo um carinho especial pela serotonina e a dopamina.

Por isso gosto das reticências… essas que me dizem que amanhã vou ouvir a tua voz, vou descobrir que gostas de viajar, que ouves Robbie Williams e agora Jill… que partilhas comigo um desejo infinito de descobertas a dois… e que não tens medo de saltos tandem na vida. 


Sê bem vindo ao meu mundo… e aperta o cinto, pois estamos prestes a descolar!!!

quarta-feira, 2 de março de 2016

... do Ontem!!!



Fanatismo
"Minh’alma, de sonhar-te, anda perdida.
Meus olhos andam cegos de te ver.
Não és sequer razão do meu viver
Pois que tu és já toda a minha vida!
Não vejo nada assim enlouquecida…
Passo no mundo, meu Amor, a ler
No misterioso livro do teu ser
A mesma história tantas vezes lida!…
“Tudo no mundo é frágil, tudo passa…
Quando me dizem isto, toda a graça
Duma boca divina fala em mim!
E, olhos postos em ti, digo de rastros:
“Ah! podem voar mundos, morrer astros,
Que tu és como Deus: princípio e fim!…”

De Florbela Espanca