“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty Eight

... Dreaming about it!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty Two

One Year… 365 Days, that feels like it was yesterday, I smile, is a contradiction, now 22 days feels like an eternity.

Especially today I would like to hear his voice, see his smile and feel his warmth… today this “vow” feels harder.

Can close my eyes and sense the embrace, the perfume, the deep, intense (sweet) kisses, even experience how it feels to be totally his… I know that sounds lunacy, is not… The name is “sensitivity memory”.

Is “easy” to be around him, hear about his day, the projects, what he believe and defend, sharing a glass of red wine,… the “protection” feeling, being surround his hug, get pleasure with is humor, listen to his smile on a casual phone call, blush with naughty text messages… plan a weekend or a Paris escape!

In sum, I Love every minute by his side, how I feel about and near him.

The “Tomorrow” is a big “white” page, but now just feeling blessed for the chance of sharing all this moments… and Yes, today is a “Sunny Day”!

… ILY!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty One

Sometimes catch myself wondering how it will be, the “D” day? What will feel when this 40 days end? What in reality they will bring?

Of course that I do not have a clue about it, I just stand for half of the “question”, but is just for that “half” I do need to “work” with.

It’s important to understand and recognize that I’m responsible only for myself, my actions, feelings…, my Life.

Most important of all that, is having the experience of feeling complete, knowing that no matter what, I know more about myself, accept and respect all about it, that I’m proud of everything that I can say this is “Me”! 

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Nineteen

Today we “cheat”, it was fun… His fault, I must say!!! He provokes, and I do have serious problems to refute or turn my back to it!!

Still dealing with tones of stuff, small details are the worse, but enjoying it, will be official on the first July!

Feeling good, actually very relax for the first time in days, “red wine” and “blue & white” does miracles on us!!!

Going to fall asleep with good vibes and memories!!! One less day…

Diary of my "Love In Quarantine"... Day One

Once upon a day a Girl meet a Boy and…

Our History started in a glance, on that day I “Lost” our “Found” myself in his Sweet Lips and my Soul on his Intense Eyes.

It happened when I was (again) questioning my future, my career, where to go… and for a long time I had lost hope in Love, meet someone Special, Different and truly Authentic.

Even if my essence was craving for Passion and Love, I was not conscience of that.

I told myself over and over again that I wish to be by myself, on my one course.

He is kind, Soft, Intense, full of life… all that made me Dream & Smile!

Our paths cross when both were facing deep life changes… He was starting over, looking for himself, his identity, hunger for freedom... he still is!

We made a vow… Live our own “Carpe Diem”, no rules, no expectations, no titles, no charges… "Only be Us"!!!

The days, weeks, months pass by and the complicity, the respect, admiration, care, intimacy, passion grow… but we are also human, with a pass, histories, attachments and with all that came also the fear of drop ourselves in the "errors" of the common relationships, lose the magic that made what we live so Special and Unique, so when we notice, questions started to haunt our minds.

Learning that communication is essential in any kind of relationship, with some less positive chooses from the pass, making baby steps, putting away our filters, we try to understand our feelings, our own goals… what we really are, feel and want from life.

We realize to be truthful and completely honest with ourselves we needed go deep, walk away from our comfort zone, and think “out of the box”… it’s true if we really want different results, we need to act different.

Love In Quarantine

We talk about it, share intentions, fears, positive that will bring “light” to our days and thoughts.

Went to bed confidante that is the best for both, but just fall asleep when the day rise, knowing that every minute it will be difficult, that I will miss all about him, but especially what he makes me fell… the person I’m when I am by his side.

Day One…

Not feeling… robot mode, just fill my day with work, manage to be with good friends, went to the cinema… “Wonder Girl” great film, need to say, above my poor expectation.

We share all the friends I have here, share hobbies, interests, it will be quite a challenge.

Catch myself thinking: How he is? Does he think about me? Looking to the phone, knowing that it will not ring, and we just start the first 24 hours of a long journey.

Like to think that we are doing it side by side, perceptive that deep in my heart it will be ok, will make me stronger, smarter, but also bring to the light like a “Heads Up” that we don’t control anything, in particular our own feelings.

“Nothings Ends, everything Transforms”; If it meant to be, It will be”; If it don’t kill, it will make you Stronger”… and so one!!! 

ILY...

8 Meses… 64 Semanas… 255 Dias… 6120 Horas… De descobertas, aprendizagem, sorrisos, desejo, imensas surpresas, partilha e dádivas. 
Poderia debitar aqui um milhão de palavras para descrever o que vivo e sinto, mas a verdade é que muitas vezes as palavras não descrevem com exatidão o queremos dizer… então limito-me dizer que estou grata, por Sentir e Viver os meus sonhos de menina/ mulher.

Agradecida a Ti por me receberes na tua vida, dizer-te que quando abres os braços para me abraçar, me fazes sentir segura, protegida, querida… por me aceitares tal como sou, sem filtros ou demandas quiméricas, por aturares as loucuras, os meus apegos e medos, gosto de ti assim… real, simples com tudo o que comportas, com o que desejas e és, no Teu tempo e espaço.

Não… Não estou a dizer que és perfeito, nós não somos perfeitos e eu, certamente estou longe de o ser.
Pelo caminho aprendi que podemos e devemos crescer com a diferênça, com o "novo", que a adversidade é uma oportunidade de crescer, aprender, de superar limites, de olhar a Vida de outras perspetivas e aos poucos, no Meu tempo estou mais recetiva a dar e a receber.

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