“Love In Quarantine”… Day Thirty One

Just… feeling Great, Happy, Blessed!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty Six

Amazing how making others smile, can fill our own heart with joy and happiness!!!

I do like to see people happy, surprise and make them feel "Unique".

There are “Special Ones” that pass all their life thinking about others, taking care, and normally are the ones that use to show themselves as strong, independent, like if they don’t need anything… but they Do!

“Real People” that really care about their partners in life, just because is their nature… those ones I try to keep very close, I try to do my best, because normally are the ones I call “Family”!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty Five

With the days pass by, is getting “easier”, probably because my mind is in “peace” with my heart.

Is a journey, an experience into ourselves, when we allow our attachments came out and speak freely.

That “smog” is not here anymore, and now I can see clearly were I’m.

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Twenty Two

One Year… 365 Days, that feels like it was yesterday, I smile, is a contradiction, now 22 days feels like an eternity.

Especially today I would like to hear his voice, see his smile and feel his warmth… today this “vow” feels harder.

Can close my eyes and sense the embrace, the perfume, the deep, intense (sweet) kisses, even experience how it feels to be totally his… I know that sounds lunacy, is not… The name is “sensitivity memory”.

Is “easy” to be around him, hear about his day, the projects, what he believe and defend, sharing a glass of red wine,… the “protection” feeling, being surround his hug, get pleasure with is humor, listen to his smile on a casual phone call, blush with naughty text messages… plan a weekend or a Paris escape!

In sum, I Love every minute by his side, how I feel about and near him.

The “Tomorrow” is a big “white” page, but now just feeling blessed for the chance of sharing all this moments… and Yes, today is a “Sunny Day”!

… ILY!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Eighteen

“Unfilled”… feels like I have a big hole on my chest that sucked all my energy.

“Love Hangover”… the abstinence from the “Us”, all the efforts needed to deal with the emotions and my deep thoughts are making me feel like this… doing my best to understand the strange “humor flows” that I’m dealing with.  

Smile and them sad and lonely, positive and then stay emotional… feeling tired!!!

It hard, just wants to scream and run far away from me, my thoughts, from this “emotional mood” that toke over my “Sunshine”!

Want to call and say: Hey you there… I Love You, I care, I feel… I “need” Us!!!

Can’t do that, so I write, it’s the only way I found to speak to myself, to organize ideas and try to understand my feelings.

Not going anywhere, just a “moment feeling”, here is where I want to be, is the “home” I choose no matter what.

Please do not misunderstand me… I do not regret anything, truly happy for being able to feel and sharing my feelings and thoughts, myself… just learning about it.

My heart shot every time we cross, who said: “Away from the eyes, away from the heart”???

Lie, it’s a myth… I never had You so close, so present in Me!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Sixteen

In my mind I’m experiencing a deep divergence between what I do know and what I feel.

Want to be cool, let it flow and give it to the “Universe”, but my feelings are real, are not “assumptions”, it’s not something that I simple throw in a “box” and keep away.

They are very alive, making me questioning “everything”… even who I really am!

Feeling insecure… still doesn’t know why, and that’s my conflict!

Do I fear to feel, to deep connect with someone and them be disappointed or do I really fear not to be connect at all?!!

Don’t make any sense in a “logical” perspective, knowing that can’t control my feelings, I do Know that life is always in movement, that every day is new one full of surprises, but also know that I’m strong, I can count on me, so WTF I’m afraid of???

A “control freak” that’s my problem… still facing some of my old “demons”, never had the strength or the courage of showing myself completely to someone, lived my all life giving/ sharing just “pieces” of me.

This time is different, it was not a conscience choice, it just happen!

It feels good, unexpected, real, overwhelming, disconcerting… for the first time it feels “Me”!

Realize that I do not know the “full” of me, and maybe that’s the reason of my “uncertainties”!

Do know that deeply Love this “Girl”, she is Real, Happy, Smiley… Complete!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Fourteen

The feedback was great!!! It’s an amazing feeling when people truly enjoy and appreciate your dedication.

Took the rest of the day to relax on my favorite place… the Beach!

Amazing day, the water was warm, the wind hot… went with a girlfriend… “Girls Day at the Beach”!

We enjoy the sunset accompanied by a nice cocktail… the perfect end of a good Weekend!

Feeling Happy, Blessed and Overconfident!!!

...ILY

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Ten

Sunny Day full of Big Smiles!

Stunning as simple, “small” things/ gestures can make your day, today were 20 "small" words and a enormous sunshine, a rainbow walk into my Soul.

A “Woman in a Girl Soul”… It’s amusing to realize it, that “girl” is full of life, energy and dreams, at this point just allowing myself to get to know her, giving her space to “coexist” in Me.

She has so much to share, to learn, to edify… I must come clean and say that sometimes I feel overwhelmed.

Going to sleep feeling “entire”!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Five

It’s amazing the ability we have to adjust, adapt to almost everything, I’m not saying that is easy, is not, but step by step, day by day the ideas start to be more clear… the true is that on our daily basis we do not hear our thoughts, our deep feelings, the “noise” around us generate a “fog” in our mind that keep us “busy”.

Yesterday I went to an astrology consultation, totally forgot to mention it, my mind was still spinning with all the information.

It was different from the ones I went before, she is also psychologist, and her approach is not as spiritual as I was used to, was grounded, focused in action, positive thoughts, my goals.

Tired but happy… new project will launch in one week, I couldn’t believe if someone told me a year ago that I could be one entire year without working, a workaholic with no hope… it was a great year!

I look back and really seams it was in another life… I reborn!!!

“Love In Quarantine”… Day Three

Long day, full of emotions, strange ones… some goods, other odd.

Wake up feeling like a “trunk” pass on me, maybe too much workout physical and mental.

All the processes are (feel) like a lopping… ups & downs, keeping my mind objective, looking for the balance between the rational and the emotional.

In the end of the day I can say it was a very positive one, face some “demons” but the glow from my angels (positive thoughts) took the best of my day.

Days like today that finished with a Big Smile are what I call a Good Day… “My Days”!!!